It's been awhile since I have blogged. Things have been a lil crazy, some in a bad way but most in a good way. I has a viral attack on my heart which had me hospitalized for a few weeks. But I am a champ, I wrecked that shit.
I've done alot of soul searching and have come to an agreement with myself. After years of battling depression, I decided I was going to fight back and take me back. I still battle occasionally, but for the most part I am great. I've weeded out a lot of negative things and people that were weighing me down in life. That helped immensely. I started doing things that I normally wouldn't do and put myself out there. I had a saying I went by everyday and said it every morning when I woke up. It is now tattoo'd on my leg so I can be reminded if I start being in a foul or negative mood. It says, "Today is yours Paint it beautiful" Ok it doesn't help when I am in a bad mood, but hey we all have those days.
I started going out with friends, doing things on weekends and basically picking my ass up and making it do something.
Once I started to do things and surround myself with friends and positive influences, I found myself being more happy and not struggling to do so. Hell, I would wake up to go to a job I hated at 5:30 am and would be happy about it. I think something may of been wrong with me mentally there. Haha. Simple things started to mean something rather than the things that complicated life.
I met a man in the end of March. Although I thought nothing of it, because quite frankly, I didn't want a relationship nor did I believe in love, we hit it off. Things went super fast. Holy shit Batman, I swore I would never marry again, as the first time was a miserable experience and I was adapting to my single life. But before you knew it, we eloped on May 23, 2014. With that came 4 children, haha...Don't worry I haven't killed one of them yet. No, actually they are great kids, I wouldn't change them for anything.
He treats me amazing, unlike I have ever been treated and he puts up with my shit. I quit that miserable job, and now travel with him. He drives truck for a living and we have gone to some pretty cool places. We were laid over in New Orleans for a weekend, so we made the best of it and went down to Bourbon Street, we took a tour with an super cute tour guide named Pumpkin Pie. She was a 16 year old mule. We visited St Louis Cemetery #1 and the grave of Voodoo Queen Marie Laveau. The stories were awesome, the history is amazing. I highly recommend to anyone to go on that tour if anything.
Anyways, things are going well for now, I will be going with him sooner or later, depending on an event that may or may not happen.
I hope if anything you get from this, that no matter how bad life seems to be, as long as you keep your head up and boobs out, everything will be alright.
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